Thursday, July 21, 2005 im holding on by letting go of you.
this is part of the lyrics from straightjacket feeling by of the all american rejects. read it and suddenly it just hit me. i dont know but it seems real. & yays! they have a new album. i wna get it. soon! :)
yesterday was IEF. slept at 3am & woke at 730am for that stupid test! think im gna flunk the general knowledge section. will start reading up for my next test. and the whole class flunked project? utter bullshit la. sigh. got to do well for presentation. -prays hard
went to thai express at holland v to eat. yays! i love thai food. chilled around the west side. went to silso too. its so quiet & different on weekdays. so pretty! slowly seeing the sunset and the sky darken. the north star was the only star i could see yesterday. was wondering how lonely it is. so high up in the sky.
ate hans for dinner. love their sandwiches! tastes so homely. haha. cos i always make them at home too. ate hazelnut & mango sorbet from new zealand natural ice cream. it was good! sat around at harbourfront till i absolutely had to leave. i hate leaving! ): leaving is never easy.
came home, bathe and plonked on bed and snored away. was that tired.
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today went for lunch with my parents and grandma. ate steak & chicken combo at the vines. was good but filling like hell. drank tea without milk and my grandma was like "why? cos fattening?" i just nodded. couldnt be bothered to explain why i like my tea plain now. will lead to more questions. wrong move!
mum started this thing about how i dont eat. AS USUAL. spoilt my whole mood. day went downhill from then. all the nagging. telling me must eat and all those stuff. i was so irritated. so i decided to show my mum what really not eating is all about. ha! i am determined not to eat proper meals from now on. see if she wants to nag at me again and tell the whole world that im not eating or not. she made me do this!
nothing from fms is going into my head! so dead. brain says full maximum overload! got to throw things out of my head. my brother is irritating me right now. grr. the only thing keeping me sane is me.
im still wondering about the out of sight, out of mind thing. hmm, i like dreaming. dreaming brings you next to me even though you're not beside me ((: officially nuts!
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